EPISODE 17: "Memory"

Our bodies are like sponges; the emotions we've experienced in the past, both the good and the burdensome, stay within us.

Have you ever encountered certain events where you suddenly had an overwhelming reaction, without understanding why?

It turns out we have experienced traumas that haven't fully healed. When we encounter similar events again, your brain sends a "danger" signal, and past emotions come rushing back like waves...

Last year, during the organization of a tea event, I found myself uncontrollably replaying details in my mind and experiencing negative emotional reactions like anger, worry, anxiety, and loneliness. When others' changes led to an abrupt increase in my workload, I became particularly irritable.

Looking back after the event, many of these emotional reactions were beyond reason. After all, I am an experienced event organizer, having coordinated numerous large-scale events with hundreds of people. Even though I had to face new places and cultures, a tea event with 60 people should have been well within my capabilities.

So why did I feel so agitated? Where did these negative emotions come from?

Past emotional memories were stirred up, lingering like shadows. Organizing the event reawakened the pressures, difficulties, the overwhelming workload, office politics, and futile efforts I had experienced in my previous career... and more.

Tea brewing makes us more attuned to our bodies, helping us understand ourselves better.

If brewing tea is like meditation, like contemplation, then organizing a tea event is like stepping back into the world, facing the real and mundane people and events, and honing our body and mind in the real world.